The other day, I’m not sure what was wrong. I think I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed because I wasn’t in the best of moods. A few hours into the work day and this feeling continued to overwhelm me and I just couldn’t shake it. As the day progressed I began to realize what it was. The best way to fix an issue is to identify the root cause of the problem, and I did just that and music was the solution.
From about early August ‘10 to early November ‘10, I was non-stop. There were concerts, baseball games, plans with friends, vacation home to NY, meeting new people, starting a new job, moving into a new apartment, camping trips, road trips, and very random events (like an all you can eat lamb and wine event). It was several months full of memories I will never forget. All of this changed on November 7th.
November 7th, 2010 was a Mae concert (click on the band name to go to their website to listen to their music, amazing!). This was the last of 7 concerts I went to between 10/10/10 and 11/7/10 (5 of those 7 were in 10 days between 10/20/10 and 10/30/10). The summer into fall was a rush, it seemed non-stop. I moved into my new apartment but was barely in it and I loved that. Not being home is amazing to me, always being on the go with something to do is what I love for, whether it be with or without people.
Anyways, the Mae concert was the end of several months of the non-stop activity. It all just…stopped. Looking at my upcoming calendar after this concert, I saw nothing besides a Broadway show in January and a trip home to NY in December. I already started the new job so that excitement died down, as did the new apartment I was in for over a month now. I felt empty. I don’t know what to do with nothing to look forward to and a calendar not full of activities waiting in the wings. It took a few hours of a random work day about a week after the Mae show for me to realize that this was the reason I was feeling melancholy, lethargic and just overall blah.
I didn’t know what to do, do I just find some concerts to go to and assume this is the void I was feeling, do I need some random new plan coming up to look forward to, did I need to pick up a new hobby? I didn’t know. I spoke to my girlfriend about this and she wasn’t quite sure what to make of it. I wasn’t happy and she could sense that and I knew she wanted to help. We talked for a few hours over IM during work about this. She had some amazing points like how my old job (which I was at for 2 1/2 years), it didn’t feel like work since it felt like I was getting paid to hang out with my friends. This was a really good point and definitely something I was happily ignoring while I did all of these plans. Now at my new job, without that existing social circle, I had to face the new found emptiness in my life.
After talking about things for a few hours, she made a recommendation to me, to make a music playlist. She knows how much music means to me and she thought that making a playlist would be therapeutic. I would never turning down making a playlist so I gave it a shot. Within 5 minutes of making this playlist, my day had taken a 180 degree turn for the better. I felt inspired, I remembered that while my plans may not be as often, work might be different and l might not be surrounded by my closest friends at all times, music is and always will be constant.
Music is one of my biggest passions, I have a few but music is definitely at the top. I hate silence (if you know me you know I fill the silence with music or me talking), I listen to music while I work, while I walk, while I’m home doing random things. I decided to make a playlist of the most essential tracks from my 5 favorite musicians/bands. These are the songs from the bands that make me me. Songs that will never get old and will always make me happy no matter what else is going on in my life. Now, thanks to Grooveshark, I can listen to these whenever I want and better yet, share it with everyone out there who has read this far down in my blog post.
Here is the link to the Grooveshark playlist:
If you aren’t a VIP of Grooveshark, it is COMPLETELY worth the $3/month they are asking for. You get unlimited music jukebox and playlist making abilities for all of the songs in the Grooveshark universe. These aren’t songs from your computer, these are millions of songs the community has put up on this service for you to listen to whenever you want. Like a YouTube of music, or like imeem if anyone here remembers that service before My[____] bought them.
So this ends my rant for today. It was a long way to go to get to the end but to sum it up, music is the soundtrack to my life and the CD is on repeat.